no harm having fun :D

OH .. look!
an average normal looking edible banana that hangs around in your kitchen , waiting to be pluck off and for you peel their yellow skin and chew them for the vitamins. how boring.



but weirdly enough, when father was busy concentrating on the television and mother gossipping away on the phone while her children quarrelling over who should get the last piece of cake , something magical happened!



a banana popped out of no where and landed on the kitchen counter but a minute later..

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A BANANA FAIRY! WHAT ON EARTH! NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE BUT YES!
such rare event but still.. the most beautiful banana ever. A tiny yet magnificent crown fitting perfectly on her long silky brunette hair. A pair of big adorable sparkling eyes matching with a small cutsy smile. Not only that, keeping herself in the trend, wore a revealing strip top , hoping to catch eyes of other suave banana. Carrying with her is a charming banana wand that cast spells and magical moments and last of all, a pair of hot glittering wings. [ i suddenly thought about yi lin ]

" let give these bananas some life! " she chuckled.
and with a wave of her wand, poof!





yay! and they came alive and started to have a party and all the bananas live bannaily ever after.

The Banaend!

gone, are the waiting of anticipation.

i finally received my results and when i did, my mother burst into tears. i really really coudln t believe it myself at first. Before that, my hands were shaking while signing the paper. All i could think was , that was the crucial moment of my life. And in the end, i am happy with what i have :D though i seriously honestly think i screwed up my combine humanities. Disappointed in myself for that area and i think i upsetted Mr. Wong a lil but he is glad with my overall :D the only C in the certificate looks fugly. And i really studied for my SS and Geog! Wonder which part did i screw up in. Sheet la :[

btw, congrats to deborah and jian wei :D they scored better than me ):
and the rest of my friends :]

Ok, lets see my scores hor :D
hahah, so hao lian >:]

EL - B3

E Math - B3

POA - B3

Chinese - B4 ( I AM SO SURPRISE LOR, DAM :D )

Art - A2

Combine Science- B3

Combine Humans - C6 (ars)

So for R4, i got 14 and R5, i got 20. screwed! >:[
anyway, i can t help it , i seriously can t , but i really missed Richielyn. I heard she went back to Phlippines from Mohana and her father took her results instead. Maybe she is really one of the friends that make a biggest impact in my life and when i told mohana to pass the message of sending her a Happybirthday on Jan31, i dunno whether she really did it . Anyway, i hope she get good results so she can study here :]

But whatever it is, i know both of us have move on with our life whether it is our choice a not . I will just wish her for the best. That's the least i can do anyway.
Lord, Please bless her.

I can tell my mother is really proud of me :] She can t stop telling her friends and my aunties how i scored and urm, how i am the only one that got an distinction in art. Haha, i am relieved. The after effects wasn t so bad and though my father cannot recognise my talents in Art, his statement of ' Very Good' , something so plain, but weigh like a gold bar. Anyway, i am so glad that i am out of the Secondary School stage now , whether good or bad memories, i will treasure them.


Went to School E's house to celebrate and eat steamboat :D
deborah super suay, she is really sick. ahh dam!
then i brought my lil cousins to play basketball and then home.

NO ONE can call me dumb now :D

* * *

Yi Lin , i really really honestly truely miss you! Why is it when we are starting to enjoy ourselve, you have to go back to Australia. Nevertheless, i can t wait for June. I really want to backpack to Australia! Then we go have a wild time with those cute hunky ang mor kias! haha! I will secretly stash in a pair of bikini! :]

i love you with all my heart!

* * *

btw, don t need to work riao :]
my rewards from my uncle and aunties are increasing!
hhahaha!

melon head :[



sigh. i just cut my hair yesterday and the front part looks like that. i know it sounds a lil weird, but yeah ): it is so odd, but i love my back part :D hm, i think i was too kay kiang. i thought it would look okay , who knew my hair would curl to the side of my face.

then wee kiat say deborah prettier than me . hey, wee kiat, it hurts okay.
now, i lack confidence in myself, thanks to him. shet. don t dare to face people now. think i should wear a cap from tomorrow onwards.

a lot of funny things happen today. but today one primary 6 kid scolded me the f word because i whack him on his leg as he was making so much noise and he didn t say sorry sincerely. it was seriously upsetting and when ms siok yan reprimanded him, he took so long to apolegise. oh well.

caleb spilled milo today because i joked with him about a pear . so funny. then he still say, i will send you the bill tomorrow because his pants had milo stains on it . then, i told him to teach louis while i teach tzu yang and after that louis complain that this korkor teach until so lao ya. i laugh until bth.

anyway, not going to work tomorrow :D going to spend time with NG YI LIN :]

btw, on the way back home was a painful walk as my knee acted up again. it was so stiff , i could barely walk. sigh, an old injury. i almost sat on the floor and cry but i just dragged myself home.
then, as i was about to change my goldfishes's water. i realised there were only 2 , one died. Why is it when something die, i am not there or maybe don t even know about it until so much later. hm, so one 'mo' is gone. ):


so sad D:
and i really really like them so much D:

/edited.

forgot to write about wee kiat touching my butt accidentally.
he still can smile after that, dunno whether is he shuang or like he say , my expression very funny. still can say, my butt no shape. bth .

this type of friend also have! >;[

february, a new month :D

argh. i seriously dread this month because i am collecting my results soon. i keep having this reoccuring fear that my L1R4 would be above 20 and even then, it is not the worse, it is the after effect that takes place, showing my family. i am so scared. i am so afraid that my ugly score would get my into troubles and my future is gone - already knowing from many people that Visual Communication is a course that is hard to get you jobs later. I really dunno what to do now , all i can do is just fret. If i am kicked out of the house because of my horrible results, will anyone let me in?

I can t stand myself being 'bop' down again and again and again but i mean, that's the way it is . My forte was never in studies but a subject that Singapore had never taken this issue as a importance - Sports. So right now , i feel like i am in a no man island. I know people will still love me for whatever results that i have , but will the people still look at me the same way before? and not treat me like some low down shit? i can t take this crap anymore, it is simply boggling my mind. But i know for sure, if my results are no good, problems at home is sure to catch fire again, and once again, i will feel like a fcuked up burden.

* * *

February 2nd

off to whitesands after work at the daycare center to have dinner with deborah and Macdonalds. their new prosperity meal is not bad :D my total favourite because it is blackpepper and it is HOT HOT HOT :] i love! after that, took a train down to Simei and bought a lil snacks from 7-11 and ran under the MRT tracks like crazy because we thought there was a bangala following us and luckily korkorwee came to fetch us! we ate ice cream, twisties , watched Survivor and played table tennis before we headed upstairs. Deborah and i were supposed to sleep in the guest room but ah kim found 2 cockroaches and we slept in the master bedroom instead. Halfway through the night, i confiscated Deborah's bolster and used it as my pillow instead. The pillow was so hard , like those in the olden days of China. HAHAHA.



the train down to Simei was very empty :D
btw, deborah lie until so sexy while i lie like some dead corpse.

February 3rd

woke up and had chicken rice at some bedok place with Ah gu, Ah kim , Yi Lin , Deborah and I. later went to shop and save for a while and headed back to Yi Lin's house. We played make up later :D i love lor! i seriously think i look good with thick eyeliner around my eye like avril lavinge! we did deborah's one first , then me , then yi lin. later korkor wee did for yuan yin. not bad la :D we took a photo together . my standing position is so weird.



deborah, jy, yi lin and yuan yin :D



my make up pattern drawn by NG YI LIN



they are called curry leaves to cook in the curry



i like this picture a lot :D


we wanted to do for korkor wee but he ran away. sigh, i was so excited too. later we had to bath and changed into pretty clothes and headed down to Orchid country club for CNY dinner and then we went back to Deborah's house for a game of mahjongs and chatting for the kids :D
we reached home about 2am, i was so tired, i fell asleep after plonking myself on the bed.

* * *

February 4th

went to church today and deborah and I isolated ourselves from the crowd and sat upstairs alone . I felt a lil comfortable that way and i wrote lots of notes. Later we took a bus down to suntec city and a train down to orchard to meet up with Yi lin. we walked around a lil, watched Once in a Summer. Sigh, the guy in the movie is so romantic unlike singaporeans guy here. I love his smile lor. Ate desserts at Swenson and took a slow walk back to the train station. Korkor fetched me from the bus stop because the walk home is a lil dark and before that i saw Li Zhen and i miss her so much :D

Yi lin is going back soon and we just started to have fun :[



don t want to put this picture big big ): , later people think i zi lian but honestly i am taking pictures to see how i look like this artistic make up. nothing more and nothing less :D but i think i look good :D or maybe even better than good! HAHAHA.

gosh. i have to take care of 30 kids tomorrow.



1 , 2 , 3 , DAO!
btw, i design Deborah's and Yi Lin 's make up pattern?
nice not :D comments okay!

darling don t you know.

i shouted at Charmane, drilled Tze yang and i am not sure if Cindy cried because of me? I never knew this job could psycho people's mind, being so stressed. Hey? you think it is easy? bribe the kids with sweets and stickers (well it does work) but they get so distracted easily and the two hours for studying time passed so quickly that even a simple spelling can t even be memorised.

i shouted at Charmane today because she wouldn t sleep during nap time and she kept humming loudly and kicked her bag around. Please don t think i am impaitient or anything but with 19 girls sleeping while there is a irritant making a racket, in the end you get 20 girls awake. The most dam thing is after you screamed at her and practically feel your blood boiling, she is still smiling away. So now, i found out that staring at her with my killer eyes somehow annoy her. haha! Miss Siok Yan was behind me when i scolded Charmane that she took so long to take out her spelling book and she said i should continue and my first reaction was SHIT, SHE HEARD. haha, i got the power to control her now >:]

* * *

Shawn coudln t take it and took Cindy's toy bear and threw it in front of the class and he got pushed to the floor. However, Cindy got reprimanded instead because she was supposed to pay attention and not fool around and bully those who sat around her and her favourite bear was confiscated. She controlled her tears and during nap time, she took her camping bag and just lie in the heart of the room and covered her face. Normally, i would have to pat her to sleep and tucked her in but she just plonked herself there and shaked you off if you tried to touch her. For the first half hour of the hour, you can hear muffled crying and in the end i just pulled her beside me and pat her.

Soon, it was time to wake up but she just laid there covering her face again. I pulled her hands away as she struggled and in the end i just smack her butt hard and she started crying again. I asked her repeatedly what was she crying about, is it the bear? miss siok yan? but she just ignored me . In the end, i lift her up and hugged her and let her cry it out . It reminded me of my mother so much because that is what she always do for me when i am crying. Cindy finally felt much better and i brought her to the toilet to wash her face and hugged her again. And during study time, she came and hugged me again.

I dunno what is going in Cindy's mind but nobody like her much and she use violence to get her way. I warned her so many times but somehow it never get into her head though sometimes i think she have improved a lil now , she knows that i am watching her and keeps her hands to herself, though she stare at them with as if sharp daggers protruding out everywhere. Another thing is that she can t seem to talk properly, she always look at you blankly with an open mouth and go AHH? i thought she was a 'special' kid but when i see her work written with perfect english , it just simply shocked me. So now, everything i do for her, i teach her manners on the way like Thank you, that is nice of you but she hasn t said one phrase yet. I wonder what will happen when i am gone.

* * *

Tze Yang's brain need to expand. Luckily he didn t fool around when i teach him. But i am glad he can spell 7 words out of 10. However, it is quite worrying , there is still Dictation for him to learn and there is a hard word ' Dilligence' . Before i dragged myself to work, i always shrugged off and groaned when i think about teaching the kids spelling. Thank goodness i can really multi-task well. I really love how i do that now . It helps a lot .

* * *

mommy told me to come home for dinner today because she cooked yong tau foo and i was so happy when i heard that. i had a bad gastric today and a throbbing headache so while waiting for my mother , she suddenly whispered to my ear,

" i save for you the ingredient, the soup but i forgot something... the rice"

the most important thing in the meal. sigh. ;[ hungry now.

yay, i am getting my pay tomorrow, that is what wee kiat said :D
sorry for the long post of moaning .

so much for being nervous

yello :D !

guess how the dinner went? was i seriously shaking and shivering in my pants and my stupid heart going pom pom pom? yeah, actually it did - on the way there. BUT, it was seriously not worth it - my efforts that it . woot, i bathed in passionfruit soap, blowdry my hair, make-up applied and a good shirt and jeans, eh, sound so perfect right ;D hmm. he didn t come in the end because he had church session

it is seriously so dam ironic. i skipped church for the second time because of this dinner and here he is not here! and i thought he could like somehow prove me wrong again. hm, i think he somehow made me give up now , honestly disappointed. Dam.

Before that, we arrived early so my brother and I decided to walk along Singapore River and my silly brother put his foot on the railing to prevent people from failling in , to tie his shoelace.

jy: hey, dont ?
kor: why?
jy: because if you fall in ..-
kor: WON T LA
jy: i won t save you, my hair is too perfect now

LOL. dam, he ruffled my hair later? but after knowing that his presence was not here anymore , i really want to thanks deborah and yi lin for lifting my spirits up. if not , i would be glum. ok, shut up, enough of him, dam sickening .

* * *

i really dunno how to tell miss siok yan i don t want to work anymore.

nothing in this world.

yello :D

i really really like this blogskin. somehow, i think it really describe my character , like i have 7 main emotions! haha >:D let's see, what are the seven. i think most of them are happy feelings, like cheeky and all those. Yes! i finally admitted i am cheeky.

during school days, i REALLY REALLY love saturday but now i find it a bore probably i have no one to go out with D: my dates are always postpone last minute due to unforeseen weather or someone is busy and in the end, i'll just stay home and my loyal internet will try so hard to entertain me .

went out with lincoln tee for lunch today. aha! my old primary school friend. he really changed a lot . more man now >:D hah! and more, hmm, intellectual , like he really seriously talked CHIM and most of the time , i pretend i understand or try to make him explain to me. he kept talking about himself , WHICH is a good time because i really didn t know what to say or do, i kept rubbing my eyes and i was so afraid i got something on my teeth. And why the hell am i acting like i am on a date. this paragraph is making me look lowly- educated. oh well.

but we had a good time :D ! we caught up of all the lost times. he paid for everything which made me feel so bad about it and he practically memorised the whole routine of House of Dead 4 , i wondered if dying in stage 2 for a first- timer is a good thing? i think woodlands mall gives that much memories, like collecting donation and out with my best friends , i wonder what else will be next for me .

hm, i am dying to play floorball! i haven t touched my stick for a long time and i want to run like a crazy cow round the court again. oh pei pei pei pei, when is it when! i am so stressed from taking care of the kids in Pearlcare. Yes yes, i know they are cute but all 40 kids running around, against one wimpy teenage girl is honestly THAT bad. HOWEVER, this job teaches me how to be paitient which is a good thing :D although i lose my cool once in a while , only towards this one girl who is so god dam rude to me. She said she can take advantage of me because i am not fierce like her parents . I could only give her the killer eyes . >:[

i can t go to church AGAIN. i have to go to the dinner event with Daryl's family . I wanted to wear a dress but after a few days and LOTS of thinking , i realised it is kinda useless. There is really no point. I am gonna be myself , I don t want to pretend to be who i am not and my brain said i don t like him anymore but after meeting up with him, i wonder what will my heart say? Will she panic and jump about or simply be her normal self. Gah, i wished the best for myself :D
So a T-shirt and a jeans will do.

watched Madagascar and coudln t stop laughing at the stupid arrogant penguins. they are so cute! i think i love cartoon penguins now . don t worry spongebob, your my one and only gay cartoon icon :D



look how madly deeply in love we are :D

} MAN!

haha. just saw peipei's post on not-having-faith-in-ourselve-that-we-ARE-that-good-in floorball. like wth peipei! come on, we are just giving the boys face. btw, i think i have improved ! even if that means that i haven t been attending club training for a long time, HOWEVER! i got new indoor court shoes so i bet i will run faster ! hahahahaha.

ok , what i am trying to say is , just play okay? who cares about what other thinks! too much confidence leads them to no where.

so urm, when is it :D

} it all ends up to me.

" SO I AM THE NEXT WORSE OFF WOMAN IN THE WHOLE WORLD LA ! "

why did you ask me that when you know it is not true? why does it still all ends up with me . i didn t said i didnt want to go into direct admission, i just wanted you to know that if i have a choice i don t want to go into Nanyang Poly. But if you didn t know , it hurts knowing that you don t have faith in me. Why is it so hard to understand ?

i just need to know that you trust me , but somehow you can t seem to loosen the strings yet. the arguement always start when kor is around and in the end i get hurt the most but it really never occur to you that i am really really emotionally stressed because of this . Somehow i can t cry it out , omg, it is really that bad but you have no clues about it and when i tell you, or maybe hint, you laughed it off?

In the end, all the blames are pushed back to me , the faults and the anger.

fucked.

} dam.

wah lau. sandy is super mean?



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she really had me there. my mind was quite freaked out .
omg omg . and i think i was quite pissed at "her sister" ?

thank god. it isn t true.

} pan's labrinyth

PLEASE GO WATCH THAT SHOW IF YOU ARE 16 AND ABOVE!
it is really very good , like the ratings said! but there are some super gore and gruesome parts, then quite funny, deborah always says EEW very loudly? then there is this qian bian fellow who kept humming the lullaby tune. Yi lin , Deborah and I kept laughing to ourselves. go watch okays?

korkor fetched me to serangoon station then went off to have lunch with kaka. i arrived bugis early and i gave up my seat to an old man carrying a baby! but he didn t even gave a thanks? anyway! i saw about 20 people wearing strip clothings today. wow, super trendy ? even i bought a dress from Mango that is striped too :D before that, ate Mac while we looked around for handbags.

coudln t watch Pan's Labrinyth at Bugis so we took a train down to Orchard and watched at Lido instead . We walked around there first, and i saw a handbag i really like! but it is $280 -.- then had dinner at Long John Silvers for dinner.

after the movie, uncle wee lam fetched us back home.
i am so happy my mom approve of the dress!
oh well, have to get back to work tomorrow.

btw, i am keeping 3 pet goldfishes now :D
i dunno what to call them but i am sure i want to end it with a "mo" , you know , like Nemo?



choose 1 only!

} something special.

hello guys :D
sorry if i haven t been updating much, i just thought i would bore you guys out if i just talked to you mostly about my job at the daycare which i had been doing so everyday.

life at the pearlcare is pretty much like a lil prison. sometimes i wonder if the kids do get bonkers sometimes, but sensing often hyper activeness during playtime is normally my answer to my question. btw , i pierced my right ear! :D i don t look so lian now , hahaha.

anyway, today was kinda different .

deborah called me up and told me to meet her at 109 bus stop and we headed to punggol plaza after that because we had the urge to drink bubble tea and deborah went to get her siew mai. we saw kwok seng playing p2p in the foodcourt as we headed to the pearlcare and i felt quite irritated. i seriously think this type of people should get a life? Sure fine, play at home , no one cares, but when your with your friends or family around and your playing your p2p,please go slap yourself. So deborah went to say Hi while i walked ahead. We sat at some void deck and the condensation of my bubbletea make a face :]



:]

Deborah still felt hungry and called kwokseng up to get more siew mai for her and when he finally came, deborah said that he took the wrong chilli and asked him to go back and change it . it was pretty funny. Later , Deborah kinda said something mean and made kwok seng walked away and when deborah finally told me what she wanted to say, i was like o.o

She said there was a nose shit hanging out of his nose.

During tutoring time, taught louis his spellings and i am so proud :D haha, he didn t wanted me to test him at first but he finally let me because nobody wanted to teach him. haha! and he had another twin brother which deborah had a hard time teaching nicolas, so louis said,

" KORKOR, LET THIS JIE JIE TEACH YOU, VERY FAST ONE . REALLY , I KNOW HOW TO SPELL NOW! "

so cute. can t wait to test him again next monday :]
i think louis like me now . hahah! since he got everything correct, i let him draw my hand with a whiteboard marker, he wrote his initials and his brothers :D



louis ng , a sun full of energy and nicolas ng.

soon, it was time to go home and i saw sabrina! (vicky's sister) she is so darn cute and her mom is enlisting her next year. i dunno if i am still working there next year with my poly and all. When Sabrina talks, she will flap her hands. i LOVE swinging her round and round while she bite her lips . haha.



funny face. look like pig :] or frog.



sabrina and i.

then wee kiat , the chow sia bear is seriously mean. he said sabrina is ba gay like me . i wanted to whack him there. but hey, i looked like her older sister right :D

later korkor and mommy fetched me from my workplace and brought me home while i changed into a more decent outfits and waited for Kaka to reach our place. Meanwhile, my brother and my mother had a hard time feeding the stupid arowana because the frog kept escaping and the stupid arowana didn t want to eat it . btw, when nobody was at home one day, i had to feed the fish and the stupid frog escape to under the piano and it took me 15 minutes to get it out. i think the first 5 minutes was freaking out , screaming and searching for a dam torchlight.

while in the lift, i clipped my hair in some funny manner where it sticked out to the side.

jy: -fidgets with my hair while passing my handphone to my brother - Kor, can you take a picture of my behind?

kor: Sure.

Here is my "behind"



my mother couldn t stop laughing after i told her what happened. seriously korkor, very funny?!

we went to eat at ITE simei at this chinese resturant where they sell nice lobster porridge which i didn t really find it very big deal about . we went to changi airport later to have desserts at swenson which is a much better meal because i had sticky chewy chocolate [ kaka's treat! ] Later Huay yi played the word game with uncle tai kit and i kept adding dirty words in. And in the end only uncle tai kit and I were playing. hahaha. so funny. omg.



korkor and I .

Wen, Yi and i went to the toilet later and started fooling around.



hehs. so small. but pretty cool :D




i love you so much huay yi and huay wen :D
thanks for tolerating my nautical nonsense :]

hah. finally i am meeting up with my best friends this wednesday :]

then just now i was talking to weekiat and he called me ba gay goldfish and at that point of time , i got cut off from the wirlessnetwork and he felt so guilty , he even asked kwokseng whether i am online. he thought i block him lor. HAHAHA so funny. i couldn t stop lmao?

hm. i love my life now !

} :D

Jingyun had just return home from a family's dinner one night and realised that her favourite gothic shoe were a lil on the dirty side. " i better wash the soles" Jingyun mumbled as she headed to the balcony. Normally, when everybody is out of the house, the balcony's door is closed. Stretching out her tan hands to slide open the door, Jingyun noticed that her mother's lovely orchids were soon withering. She stepped into the balcony, turned the tap and rubbed the soles of her favourite pairs of shoes.

Jingyun placed her damp shoes on the newly-placed rack that her mother had asked a plumber to fix it in. Meanwhile, she coudln t help to resist the temptation of plucking that withering orchid hanging on a sturdy stem. Being weak, Jingyun sneakily plucked the orchid.

" OMG! " Jingyun screamed in her head.

" i remember Yi Lin warning me not to pluck any plants in the night as it will anger the spirit"

Jingyun stared at the flower and suddenly sensing the dark surrounding her. She could see at the corner at her eye that her mother was standing in the living room, under a light, checking bills from the bank. She felt afraid. She quickly turned and rushed to the living room..





only to realise, she had banged her whole body against the transparent door.

} the usual.

everyday is the same now , weekdays - work, saturday- out and sunday-church.

but why , even though i said i don t like him anymore , still feeling that this sunday is going to be special because we are having a dinner together. why is my heart still pumping like crazy and freaking out on what to wear? stupid heart is not following what my brain is thinking which usually happens.

i am trying not to be paranoid towards someone but i just can t help it , everytime he talks to me , he always put his face up close or tries to stand or sit near me and when that happens, i get all scared and stress? i am doing my best not to think this way but i can t help it , i can t even look at him in the eye and my eyes dart all over the place everytime he comes close.

i can t help to be mean but i really dunno why i am feeling this way but i know it is not nice because i have experience it before .

D:

} kisses for the kids.

woke up late, went to the hospital late, the check up was late, the report was late , the doctor was late, the train was late and in the end, i went to the work late.

brenda didn t come today but si qi opened up to me today, was really happy about it :] when i rushed in, she was the first one to grab my hands and asked me how to spell ' with' . She is so neat with her work, and when she was done with her homework, i gave her a kiss and a sweet :] I love the way she smile. Also, i almost vomitted a lil blood teaching jillian chinese spelling and it is going to be tested tomorrow , i hope she get all correct because when she finally got everything correct today, i so badly wanted to lift her up in the air and spin her round and round.

it was raining heavily today so the kids didn t get to run around at the playground so all the kids started playing board games while the boys play sword fightings. Soon, one by one left with their parents and kelvin, kwok seng and wee kiat were playing this row4 game together while jian cong and choon kiat were discussing. i think we played for quite long and then i saw choon kiat sitting quietly doing nothing so i grabbed the row4 game and asked him to play with me. i think he was quite shocked.

it was time to leave the daycare and we played with the puddles of water on the floor while trying our best not to fall. we walked to punggol plaza for the boys to get their bread and then headed to the bus stop. the boys went back home while deborah and i went to compass for dinner and home later.

on my way home , i recalled the memories on each step i walked and looked out for any suspicious creatures.

i am tired thinking about it .

} why does this song make so much sense

WHAT HURTS THE MOST

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

sang by : Rascal Flatts .

} love at the daycare center.

woke up really early today. coudln t really sleep the night before, kept tossing and turning the whole night thinking about goat. i think the long crush i have on him is over? what is the point of liking someone and your not like in return? won t that hurt you even further? also, it is no point making someone love you, nobody ever heard of forced love. after yesterday night of his virtual presence , yet not even a single ' hi' , i know it is really the time for me to give up trying besides i coudln t be myself when i am around him, so what's really the point? sigh, enough is enough i guess. but seriously, thank him for letting me thinking there really is some 'perfect dream guy' out there in the dam ocean which isn t biting my super big bait.

i was the earliest today and waited for jian cong and deborah for quite a while . i think i was daydreaming when jian cong came and he actually waved his hand in front of my face and it took me a while to notice it . thank god there weren t any awkward moments because i really didn th ave anythign in mind to talk to him about. he really can talk lor. :D i dunno if jian cong noticed my face when he talked about family problem, i hope he didn t .

deborah finally came because she took the long way down to sengkang but i think she should know how to go now. the route there was not really that difficult. we were just a couple of feets away from the daycare center and there were already kids squeezing their lil faces through the cold metal grills of the door calling out JIAN CONG KORKOR loudly. that moment is sweeter than any sugary gummys stuffed in your mouth. we came just in time for the primary 1, 2 and 3 kids. omg, they sure gave me the biggest welcome of my life. they pulled me into thier play area , wanting me to swing them round and round as fast as i could , with one holding tightly onto my hands and another fighting to get their turns by climbing onto BOTH my shoulders , one even headbutt my butt and soon all 6 kids clobbered all over my back.

meanwhile, deborah, jian cong and choon kiat were too busy laughing at me then to help me D:

it is really hard to remember their names! soon those group of primary kids have to go to school and there was this comical scene that i kept laughing so loudly. Miss Teng was shouting to the kids who has lost their water bottle but everybody ignored her and when everyone was ready to go, suddenly a boy pushed his way out of the line and screamed that he lost his waterbottle. We asked if it was the red one which miss teng had shown before but he was like NOOONOOO, then later deborah grabbed hold of him and pointed at his left pocket of his bag. He coudln t find his water bottle because he always put it in the right pocket. I LAUGH UNTIL BTH.

after the kids left, the day care center was really quiet and miss teng gave us tips to help the lil one and what we should do and should not. after her lecture, deborah and i felt a lil hungry but the lunch that they cook didn t look really edible. So we just laid around and talk at the play area. Later aunty agnes asked us to help the cook to dry the utensils and cutlerys while jian cong set the table and soon all the primary 4, 5 and 6 kids came, there were a few primary 1 and 2.
the lil one had rice and lady fingers for lunch and i saw miss siok yat and i called her aunty -.- and miss siok yat own the day care center. Later she was nice enough to give us some of her money for lunch and there is seriously nothing in punggol, honestly, truthfully. We bought some bread from punggol plaza and headed back. Although i was hungry, i didn t really finished my waffles.

When we came back, the kids have already done their bathing and finish thier lunch so there was a lil playtime for them and brenda introduced herself to me . SHE IS SOOO CUTE OKAY. i really love her to bits. But before that i played with zhi xi, she is really quiet but extremly guai! People asked her to sit, she sit . Unlike louis and nicholas, they are like lil bunch of flies that poke you every now and then and they told other kids to attack me . It was quite hard to differentiate between the twins and finally some helpful kids told me that nicholas had a mole on his mouth but louis don t .

i love brenda :D She is primary 2 btw :D

she is so sweet la.
she climbed onto my lap and told me sadly that it was hard to pronouce my name and when i tried to tell my name to her slowly , she just couldn t get it and finally she whispered into my ears, " can i call you pretty instead? "



AWWWWW!

she looks cuter when she smile though :D so much cuter. her eyes would go into a happy squint. and she is a chinese but is super tan because her mommy often bring her to the swimming pool.

after that play time, it was time for story telling and later it was nap time. Brenda wanted me to sleep with her and pulled my hands gently to her corner but i coudln t of course. It took the girls some time to settle down, we pat, kissed and stroked each and every girl's hair in the room. God, they really looked so angelic when their eyes are closed. Also, i had to make a deal with one girl, One sweet = sleep. No sleep = no sweet. And i specially had to buy them some haribo gummy sweets for them today at compass mall .

After the angels have woken up , it was their tea time ( milo and banana ) I got a banana too, though i was dying for the milo. HAHAHA. then after they had finished, it was time to study but before that we had to do some silly exercise which i kept laughing to myself and i think choon kiat coudln t help but to laugh with me also. i had to help tutor this lil boy called kelvin and thank goodness his spelling is not as bad as deborah's tutoring kid. She almost vomitted blood. I feel a great satisfication today :D kelvin finally understood how to round off to the nearest ten after countless of hints and examples. whew, and he is so smart, he can spell the word parliaments.

and finally it was play time. hyper time. all the kids ran to the playground and i played with brenda, piggybacking her liek crazy with other kids . i think this is one heathly exercise of losing weight. they are so hyped up. and kwok seng is lame lame lame. soon brenda had to go home and she didn t give me a kiss D:

actually had prayer session today but deborah and i didn t wanted to go , instead we went to compass for dinner at KFC :D

} korkor



mastering a new skill - CUTE.

} boots shoes are made for walking

aunties came over in the morning to play mah jong . my godma talked the loudest above all the other 3 aunties but i still love her :D my brother and i could still sleep through all the racket of gossiping and the knockings of mahjong tiles against each other. later korkor woke me up at 2 and asked me to get changed quickly and he will only give me 15 minutes but i took 30 minutes. HAHAHA. struggled to finish my lunch before rushing off with kor kor.

before that , when i rushed to greet all the aunties , they all say i wear very nice except for my mother ]: she say my tube very low but my aunties like hush her and tell her don t be in the 80s. hahaha. so funny.

we walked so fast to the bus stop, thank you to my brother D: when i reached the bus stop, i was panting a lil? we alighted near Serangoon station and took the train down to outram park and change to the green line to go down to queenways. A few minutes before reaching queenways, korkor told me to prepare myself and said we can make it for the special bus that leave at 3:50 to queenways shopping center.

kor: run hor later. don t want to miss that special bus.

jy: why can t we take the taxi?

kor: because if we take the special bus, they will give us a $5 off for all the shoes .

jy: WAH!!

we ran out of the trains , rushed down the stairs and bumped people and there was this nice guy who let me tap my card first because i was giving a kor-don-pangseh-me look. HAHAHA. so funny. We were just a minute away before the special bus leave . when we sat down, we were panting again. Korkor later browse at the magazine left behind a chair's netting. meanwhile, i was taking out a piece of chewing gum to eat.

kor: open your bag bigger.

jy: huh.. omg no.

kor: :D

later i saw the special bus turning in to Alexandra hospital and i gave kor kor a confused look. after dropping off at the alexandra hospital entrance, i asked kor kor for the $5 discount and he said THERE! we got it already. you see, we didn t take a taxi so we didn t get charge for the surcharge - 2.50 each. so we get $5 off!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH! omgomgomg. tell me why didn t i fainted right at the spot? i wanted to bite him there. And when i asked him about the magazine, he told me he was borrowing it and will return it when he finished reading. seriously, my brother made use of the paitients and visitors shuttle bus to alexandra hospital because queenways shopping mall is right next to it. took a long roam in the building and i spotted korkor wee with his friends there :D and i have finally decided to buy this pair of shoes :D



haha :D so cheap. $61

btw, saw a primary school friend of mine working in a limited edition nike shop. now i know where he get his galore of fanciful shoes.

went to try out this marine parade laksa shop in the heart of queenways shopping mall. not bad :D but i think it is overpriced. after that , waited for the special bus again. while waiting, there were 2 boys playing around and suddenly one boy rushed up to where my brother was standing and pulled down his pants? so funny. my brother got a bad shock. i thought the boy wanted to wee at my brother's shoes then the mother quickly rushed forward and brought him to the toilet. i think the mother was too embarassed to turn to look at us and didn t noticed that the boy's private zone was still exposed. the bus soon arrived and korkor and i got a seat. then he realised that the people that were standing were all females and he felt really bad. i think he coudln t take it anymore and asked a lady beside him if she wanted his seat. how the lady answered was quite funny because she looked frighten? i coudln t stop lol-ing after that.

went to vivocity for dinner , before that walked around a lil and then we came across this magazine shop and there was this column full of FHM and sexy girls and the shopkeeper titled that area MALE LIFESTYLE it is like trying to saying every second of man's life is porno? ate at Thai-accent and i tried the green curry which is soooo hot! it is not really spicy, just that when it goes down your throat , you really need more than one glass of water. Korkor order a bowl of tomyam beehoon and it was just as hot too. Our nose kept dripping and i think it was quite obvious because striaght away, a waitress came and gave us a couple of tissues. She is so cute :D and before leaving the resturant, the manager who served me before asked whether i enjoyed the green curry. It is really surprising because he served so many customers and could remember something so ordinary that i have chose to eat.

stayed a lil while in the bookshop and they had this small display of artist's notebooks and you can actually view them but you must wear a pair of gloves to keep it clean. their drawings are nothing compared to mine. i am so full of envy now. went to the arcade later and played air hockey and i finally beat my brother >:DD but he beat me in my always champion armadallo game. he rolled so fast. took a picture of him drifting a virtual car. can you imagine someone can still looked so calm while drifting in real life?



drifting is an art.

headed home after that. it started to rain later and we ran , not because we mind getting wet, but because my brother wanted to show me how fast his turbo speed mean.

} necktie



i love my PMK shirt a lot :D